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Today is my first day back to work after spring break, it was so wonderful to have a whole week off. But on the other hand, it has been super hard on me. I’m trying to hard to let go the fact that I get so angry and upset at people who have and keep having children likes it’s no big deal. While I’m over here struggling and have been for 5 years in order to have a baby. Michael and I have been though so much these years and I don’t know why, but I just can’t get over it. I feel like taking to friends and family had not been helping. I sit and think to myself so much and I just want to scream or cry or both when I think about why has it been so hard for us! I already have to accept the fact that I will never be able to carry a pregnacy. That is hard enough to accept, let along think when is the time going to be our time?  I take a deep breath and I feel like I can’t fully take on, my chest is stuck with emotions and in pain. I want this feeling to go away. Tears just fall without it eve

Well, bad news.... no baby this month. We will continue to try and see what happens the second time around. We are going to order sperm again and hopefully this next time is a winner! I will not be updating until we get pregnancy news!  I pray for un update soon! 

Well today we were suppose to know if she was pregnant, but today when she tested it showed negative. Buuuuuut she has not gotten her period yet, and yesterday she has was spotting which could be implantation bleeding, so if that is the case, her pregnacy test would not show negative until after baby is done doing its thing. So about 3-4 days after her spotting HGC level would be high enough to see if she is she is really pregnant.  So the waiting game starts over again.... we will give it a few more days and have her tests again as long as she does not start her period that is.   Keeping a positive thought the baby is just getting ready to make a grand entrance!  Until next time!