I started Juicing for a few weeks now and I have made some awesome ones and not so awesome ones :) first day juicing was July 21st! So we will see how long this last!
Today I made a smoothie with Frozen Banana and blueberries and almond milk!
And it was amazing!!!
Tomorrow I will be starting the Magness Diet! I want to be 115 again so I have a lot to lose!
Well today our surrogate did the insemination, we will know by March 6th if she is pregnant. It’s going to be a long few weeks. I know that things can go wrong anytime but I’m trying to think positive. Michael is more realistic and all he keeps saying is she could have a miscarriage but I don’t want to think that. Reality I do need to think that and get prepared if that does end up happening. Everything has happened so fast and I just have really high hopes it will all work out. I will check in around March 6th or maybe before when we go to Disneyland with Michael’s siblings. Keeping my thoughts positive and really hoping she becomes pregnate by that time!
Today is my first day back to work after spring break, it was so wonderful to have a whole week off. But on the other hand, it has been super hard on me. I’m trying to hard to let go the fact that I get so angry and upset at people who have and keep having children likes it’s no big deal. While I’m over here struggling and have been for 5 years in order to have a baby. Michael and I have been though so much these years and I don’t know why, but I just can’t get over it. I feel like taking to friends and family had not been helping. I sit and think to myself so much and I just want to scream or cry or both when I think about why has it been so hard for us! I already have to accept the fact that I will never be able to carry a pregnacy. That is hard enough to accept, let along think when is the time going to be our time? I take a deep breath and I feel like I can’t fully take on, my chest is stuck with emotions and in pain. I want this feeling to go away. Tears just fall without it...
So Magness Diet, Juice Fast, 30 Day Challange, no thank you!! lol At this point with my liver numbers trying to get back on track im not trying to start anything new just trying to eat healthy and cook more. Im now on 12.5 mg of Prednisone and feeling good! Side effects are finally going away and im feeling like some of the weight i ganied is finally coming off. Slowly but sherley, im also doing BJJ again and feeling great! It was hard at first bc i wanted to go back in full speed but i had to take it one day at a time. New in our lifes... Adoption! We know that for me to have a baby anytime soon is kind of out of the question so we decided we're going to start with an adoption process and maybe in the next year so we can have a baby. Its going to be a long process and we want to get financially stable before we can even try to start anything with adoption. We will see where life takes us but for now we are saving money and trying to stay healthy in every way :)
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