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Today is my first day back to work after spring break, it was so wonderful to have a whole week off. But on the other hand, it has been super hard on me. I’m trying to hard to let go the fact that I get so angry and upset at people who have and keep having children likes it’s no big deal. While I’m over here struggling and have been for 5 years in order to have a baby. Michael and I have been though so much these years and I don’t know why, but I just can’t get over it. I feel like taking to friends and family had not been helping. I sit and think to myself so much and I just want to scream or cry or both when I think about why has it been so hard for us! I already have to accept the fact that I will never be able to carry a pregnacy. That is hard enough to accept, let along think when is the time going to be our time?  I take a deep breath and I feel like I can’t fully take on, my chest is stuck with emotions and in pain. I want this feeling to go away. Tears just fall without it...

Well, bad news.... no baby this month. We will continue to try and see what happens the second time around. We are going to order sperm again and hopefully this next time is a winner! I will not be updating until we get pregnancy news!  I pray for un update soon! 

Well today we were suppose to know if she was pregnant, but today when she tested it showed negative. Buuuuuut she has not gotten her period yet, and yesterday she has was spotting which could be implantation bleeding, so if that is the case, her pregnacy test would not show negative until after baby is done doing its thing. So about 3-4 days after her spotting HGC level would be high enough to see if she is she is really pregnant.  So the waiting game starts over again.... we will give it a few more days and have her tests again as long as she does not start her period that is.   Keeping a positive thought the baby is just getting ready to make a grand entrance!  Until next time! 

Well I have to post this! This morning Suro mom took the 10 dpo test and it shows to be a good sign! I can’t wait until she takes the next one in the morning. Today at 8am Michael and I received this photo!  So incredible, yet so anxious to see the one tomorrow!! Night! Can’t wait to walk up in the morning! Positive vibes!  We did come up with names for sure Boy- Maximiliano Magness (Max Magness)❤️ Girl- Emilia Magness (Emi Magness) ❤️

Now it’s just a on baby to be created! In the mean time, we went to Disneyland with the Jew Crew! Had an amazing time with all of them, got to meet Tina in person! Besides the fact that I got super sick, I had a great time getting to know all of Michael’s sisters.  We had a cook out at the air bnb in Cali then on Sat morning we went to Disneyland!! It was so much fun to see them interact with one another and see them each find someone in common with the other.  I have been so happy the Michael had been able to find more family and for me to have more sister!  During this time baby should be about a week if so, so we are going to start taking early pregnancy test starting tomorrow February 26th! I’m so exited I can’t even think!  I don’t want to get my hopes up to high and it be negative but I also don’t want to think negative and everything work out. I know in the  end everything happens for a reason, and it will work out for us. I know we will have a baby soone...

Well today our surrogate did the insemination, we will know by March 6th if she is pregnant. It’s going to be a long few weeks.  I know that things can go wrong anytime but I’m trying to think positive. Michael is more realistic and all he keeps saying is she could have a miscarriage but I don’t want to think that. Reality I do need to think that and get prepared if that does end up happening. Everything has happened so fast and I just have really high hopes it will all work out.  I will check in around March 6th or maybe before when we go to Disneyland with Michael’s siblings. Keeping my thoughts positive and really hoping she becomes pregnate by that time! 

Wow it’s been 5 years and we are still trying for a baby! Well in the past 5 years we have been on a roller coaster of emotions! We went from thinking we were going to have a baby 3 months later to having friends/family offer to be our surrogate and last foster care and having a baby for a month but not being able to keep him.  Ups and down is the name of the game... and here we are at it again. The main purpose for this blog is for me to look back in a few years and see how much life has changed! I can see now that it really dose but at the same time it stays right where it should be. On one hand I’m always trying to lose weight (for no reason) and always trying to new diet/life style.  Michael has been by my side in everything and I could not be more then thankful for him to have suck with me through everything. I’m a super emotional person and he knows better then anymore how to deal with me. I love him so much!  So back to today’s world, baby talk! Let’s start fro...

So the heaviest i have been is 141lbs and i have no self confidence when im that weight. I have been trying new things but the only thing that has worked for me is MyFitnessPal App just keeping track of what and how much i eat is the only thing that keeps me in check. So long story short today i weight 130lb!!!! That is so awesome!! My goal weight is 115lb that is what i was on my wedding day and i know i can do it again. Im on no special diet just making healthy choices and going for the lower calorie items.  Fitbit! I bought one well Michael bought it for me and i love it! I wish it workes while i did bjj and Yoga but at least it motivates me to run with Tanky and get him in shape too! I hit my 10,000 steps yesterday so that was cool! And im going for 15,000 next!  I have a doctors apointment tomorrow and labs so we will see what they say, i feel healthy and more fit so i hope they notice that and lower my steroids. Im so tired of them and i want to be done.  MagnessBJJ...

First of all Happy Easter!!  So much going on at the moment, bjj, weigt loss, new eatting habbits, steroids, MagnessBjj, and TopGameJJ.   Bjj is going great for me! I received my second stripe last month and i have been loving it! Feeling like its something i can let my stress out on and i have a great time sharing that in common with Michael.  Weight loss journey is going well! Last time i checked i weighed 134lbs and my goal is 115. I have gone down on my steroids so that has helped me loss weight but im still on 12.5 mg so once i get off them i will be able to drop the weight faster. I have been eating healthy but there are a few habbits i want to change 100%. Im giving up red meat, and chicken starting today. Red meat is going to be easy to do bc we pretty much already have done that. Chicken i have decided bc the other night i got sick from it and i just dont want to eat it anymore.  MagnessBJJ is doing GREAT!!! We are so happy with it and where its going. We ha...

So Magness Diet, Juice Fast, 30 Day Challange, no thank you!! lol At this point with my liver numbers trying to get back on track im not trying to start anything new just trying to eat healthy and cook more. Im now on 12.5 mg of Prednisone and feeling good! Side effects are finally going away and im feeling like some of the weight i ganied is finally coming off. Slowly but sherley, im also doing BJJ again and feeling great! It was hard at first bc i wanted to go back in full speed but i had to take it one day at a time.   New in our lifes... Adoption! We know that for me to have a baby anytime soon is kind of out of the question so we decided we're going to start with an adoption process and maybe in the next year so we can have a baby. Its going to be a long process and we want to get financially stable before we can even try to start anything with adoption.  We will see where life takes us but for now we are saving money and trying to stay healthy in every way :) 

Well i know its been a while, and last time i was trying the Magness Diet.... Failed!!  Now because of prednisone its very hard for me to lose weight, but i do want to get better at juicing. So i'm trying this out. Im not going to treat it like a diet but if i lose weight that will be a plus.  Currently i'm on 15 mg of Prednisone (that is the lowest i have ever been on) so i'm  hoping i get off soon and start Feeling like myself again. 30 day challenge this is Day 2 and i hope to make it until the end.  Its almost thanksgiving!!! Im so ready for the holidays this year :) we will be in Cali with my family😃🎅🎄 Juicing here i come! 🍎🍊🍋🍇🍉🍓 Day 1  apple beet carrots :) 

Rules No sweets No soda No dessert No processed Food for two meals 3 meals a day Workout 5 times a day Juice everyday!  I weight 140lb today Goal weight 110lb Total weight to loss 30lb I start tomorrow August 5th  I'm doing Yoga 4 times a week and Swimming laps for 20 mins Wish me luck!!! 

I started Juicing for a few weeks now and I have made some awesome ones and not so awesome ones :) first day juicing was July 21st! So we will see how long this last!  Today I made a smoothie with Frozen Banana and blueberries and almond milk!   And it was amazing!!!  Tomorrow I will be starting the Magness Diet! I want to be 115 again so I have a lot to lose! 

Michael and I one year ago decided to start planning a baby, so in order for me to do that I had to get off a strong medication i was taking at the time. So they got me off of it, I did great for a year and now a year later my liver enzymes have tripled the wrong way. So I get a blood test every 6 months and this past month it came back bad. I got an emergency liver biopsy 2 weeks ago was admitted for 3 days to get prednisone through IV they let me go 3 days later sending me home with more medications I have ever had. They let the medication work for a whole week got another test, liver numbers did look like they were going down but not as fast as they needed them to go. So now round 2 this Wednesday night I was admitted again had another biopsy but different type to get more information and now just here waiting for results that I should get today to see what the next step is going to be. I feel just fine other then the stupid side effects from the prednisone. But I'm just here fi...

So much going on this month :)  Work is still going great, now trying to qualify for insurance so we can plan our little one :)))) Michael has been talking about it a lot and he keeps telling me he is ready!  The beginning of May my brother got Married to Stacy! They had a beautiful wedding and we had a great time! Next day in Cali we went to Agustin's soccer game, and Arrowhead Lake up in the  mountains Michael had never seen. so I was happy we had time to go this trip around, except I got car sick ( what's new) and threw up on the side of the road but other then that it was a beautiful day. The day after that we want to San Diego the beach to wall around and had a late lunch at La Jolla Coast.  May 12th was Mother's Day! Michael and I took Eileen to The Village with us then met up with my mom at Papasitos for lunch. Had a special day with our moms.  May 16th we found out that Sam and Ashton Eubanks are having a prefect baby boy! Named Cooper Jay Eubanks and I ...

Well, a lot has been going on.... No more Starbucks job, Massage Envy, now on to a better job COFK has a translator :) I have been working for this company for about a month now and I have been super excited and happy with it. There are always pros and cons like every job but most of them are pros :) Cons: lots of driving and they don't pay for miles :( that is a bummer and I drive to fort-worth everyday so it's a far. Pros: awesome hours, pay, insurance, 30 mins in house, only translate , no paperwork, easy, fun, kids :) Other then that, Michael and I are growing our gym, Magnessbjj :) today is our first day for adults we have been doing kids classes now for about 2 months. We hope to be moving to a different location and start advertising. Michaels job is very slow and it's very hard to grow a gym with no good income other then mine. With Michael and I, everyday more and more we talk about having a baby and that has been in my heart for a while now, I feel like it...

Well a lot has been going on this week.... Massage Envy job was going good until, I got written up two times in one week. My job is VERY important to me. So getting written up is not Ok... I get very emotional about it and I feel like I'm not good enough, even though others tell me different. I have had a tough week and I'm very tired of dealing with it.. I hate to say this but I'm getting tired of Massage envy bc it seems like I can't do anything right. I have made a few mistakes and it has really been bothering me. It's hard for me to let things go. I though I was going to stay at this job for a while, but now I don't feel that is the case. In other things in my life, Michael and I have been super happy with our church and our home group. We have made great friends and have gotten to know amazing people. This past month we have been hearing testimonies and Michael and I also had to share our own. It's was amazing to tell everyone about our past and what ...

Well last time I updated was first day, but long story short the manager was hard to deal with and they can not work with my schedule so I need to move on. On the plus side I'm going to start working for massage envy!! Only thing is that I have to memorize a scrip and i suck at that :( but I'm sure ill do just fine. Another thing in our life is Michael and I are getting closer and closer to God we found a great church called The Village and its amazing! We have been going to this church for about a month and today we signed up for a home group that meets every wed starting next week, so we are excited to see how that is going to be :) I feel so blessed to have God in my life now, so when we have kids we can tell them all about God and make them believers too, unlike when I was growing up. Well it's getting late and I just gave Michael a massage so I'm tired and it's time for bed. Night!!

Today was my first day! I was super excited. I could not even sleep when I had realized I had fallen asleep my alarm went off at 4:45am and on my way to work to be there at 5:30. Feels great to have a job again but not to crazy about how much Starbucks has changed. Still getting used to the new drinks and the new register. And after working a few hours I had to do Tom Thumb training for 5 hours and it was horrible!! Took a 45 question test two times :( but glad its done and over with Now back in bed for day 2 of Starbucks morning shift. Wish me luck for my day 2 :) Night!!

Last time I posted I had gotten lovey ;) now she is 3months and a half getting cutter by the min. I had been feeling like crap the past two weeks but now hit back into running and have been feeling much better :) so I'm hoping to be starting to run a 5k sooner then I think. That is my goal to run a 5 k nonstop. Some day I will :) That is all for now. Wrote all of the thank you cards and will be sending them out tomorrow :) Glad to be all done with wedding stuff!!